Just as I am

28 May

For you formed my inward parts, you formed me in my mother’s womb.  I will give thanks to you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139: 13-14

I have someone very significant in my life who was very critical of me.  Just as the enemy would have it, as I grew up, I began to agree with the critial nature and developed one of myself.  Until now, I have struggled with never giving myself any credit for doing anything good and making sure I give myself a good verbal beating when I fall short of anything I set to do.  I literally loathed myself from the top of my head to the soles of my feet.  There was not one body part that I did not despise and want to correct with surgery.  I knew I was unique because I really don’t look or have the same body type as anyone in my family and to make me more unique, I am a contemplator (2 in 20) plus I am auditory which makes up only 6% of the population.  I used to be so self conscience of my feet that I would never wear shoes that would expose them and in fact, once I wore a really pretty sandal and one of my colleagues at work who was very heavy, said ‘nice bunions’.  Now I would have never retorted back about his weight which was very obvious, but I responded back, with ‘if you knew how self conscience I was, you would not have said that.’  The truth is God has made me and he said it is good and I realize that I have a very unique purpose for Him and I have gone through so much that will help so many people.  I decided to see myself through His eyes that I am fearfully and wonderfully made on PURPOSE.  If He gave me ugly feet for a unique purpose, that is ok with me.  You see, I know there are a lot of people like me who suffer with a poor self image and we are trying to meet someone else’s expectations or to measure up to what the world says is beautiful.  That is a strategy from the enemy and it has been working for years.   God says that we are fearfully and wonderfully made.  The hebrew word for fearfully is ‘awesome’ and wonderfully actually means ‘distinct’ !  Beloved, please do not agree with the enemy, it is a lie!  God formed you in your mother’s womb and He made you awesome and distinct !

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Posted by on May 28, 2010 in Uncategorized


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