Monthly Archives: November 2010

Crossing over

Hear O Isreal !  You are crossing over the river Jordan to go in and dispossess nations greater and mightier than you, great cities fortified to heaven.  Deut. 9:1

I am here today to give God praise because He has done so much for me this year on a particular journey that I have been on and to testify that God’s word is powerful and unlimited.  Through this journey one of the main roots that caused a lot of dysfunctional behavior from me was a root of rejection.  The manifestations of this root was either approval addiction or manipulation through passive aggression.  If I found out that you said something about me or if someone was upset with me without a cause I would own that to such a degree that it would affect the way I felt and they way I acted.  Typically I would feel very bad about myself and I would almost agree with the gossip that was spoken over me OR I would give you the silent treatment to let you know I was upset OR if you displayed anger, I would get angrier!! YUCK!  I was most recently presented with an OPPORTUNITY……I was around someone who is upset with me for something that I did not do.  They were cordial, but I was definitely treated different than the others that were around.  Because of God’s healing power, I was not affected by that person’s actions.  I was able to have a good time as if nothing was wrong.  Since my choices are not being filtered through a root of rejection, no longer do I have to be affected by what others do and think about me. Also, I did not act out of pride or entitlement, by claiming that I don’t deserve to be treated that way, afterall, I am innocent.  Another blessing from God is that I have compassion for the person holding an offense against me, because I know the torment of turmoil and I want them to be in peace.   

So the scripture applied is …….Hear O CK!  You are crossing over into a place of emotional rest and freedom and because of my power the strongholds and bondages are being destroyed which are greater than you, but not for your God!  This truth is for you too.  If you are struggling with something ask God to reveal the root and His truth and healing so that you no longer make choices that are filtered through a lie that is robbing you of a healthier you and healthy relationships.  God Bless You!

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Posted by on November 17, 2010 in Uncategorized


You are a Splendor of His Display

….so that they may be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the Lord that He may be glorified. Isaiah 61

Like most, I have had a very challenging life and it literally seems that I have always encountered battles.  As a young girl I used to ask God what have I done that I am being punished?  I have risen up against battles of abuse, divorce, abandonment, abortion, drug abuse, cancer, crime and other hard circumstances.  One day as I was getting ready for work as usual, I was watching a local christian program, I heard the testimony of a young man who was free from drug addiction and he was reaching out to youth and ministering to them about overcoming a life of abuse and drug addiction.  In that moment that is when I finally heard God reply back to years of my questioning Him about my life of struggles.  He said in a small still voice ‘ this is what your life has been about….to glorify me’.  It was that moment that I had an overwhelming sense that I was being called into ministry and all the struggles that were victories in Him, were to be a testimony to His power that through Christ we are more than conquerors.  This passage in Isaiah illustrates what we will look like after God has restored us from trials and tests.  The amplified version of ‘oaks of righteousness’ is lofty, strong, magnificent, distinguished for uprightness, justice and right standing with God.  That day doing something mundane, my life seemed to finally take on shape and purpose.  My trials no longer seem as punishment for a wounded broken little girl, but rather experiences that I am actually grateful for and want to commit them back to God for His glory.  I am honored that I would be precious enough to be put on display for Him.  Please see your trials through God’s perspective, the test that you are going through today, will be used as your testimony tomorrow!  Someone needs to see the splendor of God in you.  Because of someone’s investment in me, it meant the difference between suicide or life.  Your testimony is that important to someone!  God bless you.

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Posted by on November 3, 2010 in Uncategorized