Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort,
who comforts us in all our afflictions so that we will be able to comfort those
who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are
comforted by God. 2 Cor 1
I used to play the victim role. It seemed to just make sense to justify my behavior by what happened to me in the past. In my mind it was an excuse for my behavior and I wanted you to feel sorry for me. It was not a good excuse to stay stuck where I was. Like me, I hear a lot of people make the same excuses or justifications. You know I certainly don’t want to minimize what has taken place in anyone’s life so please hear my heart. I know exactly what its like to be young, innocent and being on the receiving end of cruel and unfair situations where I was in no way able to defend myself and helpless because there was no one around to help me. I have come to understand what Solomon was writing about in Ecclesiastes 3:1…..There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven. I understand that there was a time for my mourning, and there was a time for me to weep, but there also is an appointed time for me to laugh and dance. (Eccl. 3). I believe that there is a mourning period when we go through difficult things and I believe it is our responsibility to do whatever it takes to have healing in our life and to move on. I believe that when we stay stuck in our grief, wounds, hurts, bitterness, resentment and unforgiveness that there is no more capacity in our heart for the good things that God wants us to see, have and experience. We must make room for the things of God which is peace, joy and love, forgiveness and mercy. I felt that God was leading me to a recovery
program called Celebrate Recovery that is Christian based. I fought going, but every week I was glad that I went and I made a decision to give 100% and face the pain and fear. I had such a wonderful experience and have a peace that I have never had, however, recovery is life long process, I have to continually use the tools that I was given and some days I fall short, but I
strive to turn from temptations of past behaviors and make decisions that will make a positive difference that was not possible before recovery. I am not happy about anything that I have gone through and I would never want to experience them again, but with a paradigm shift of no longer playing the victim, allowing myself to take my experiences and help someone else who may be struggling with similar issues.
I no longer ask why I went through the things I did because God finally answered one day and said that it was my experiences that would give Him glory and it was that day that a desire for ministry was birthed. One of the things that I enjoy is speaking in
prisons. When I first learned about Celebrate Recovery, I found that it is in over 400 churches nationwide and in
40+ prisons. Now it has become my passion to get into political arenas and petition why more prisons need to have
Celebrate Recovery. It is shocking that the return rate is approximately 80% of inmates going back to prison after
being released . I believe with a recovery program and God, that those numbers can be dramatically reduced. This is just ONE desire that I have that has been birthed out of my life issues. I have to ask you, what happened in your life that could be used to bring comfort and healing to someone? There is someone right now being abused, lost a loved one, going through a divorce, unable to conquer an addiction, contemplating abortion, has been raped or is thinking of committing suicide. You are special and
you have something that no one else has – to make a difference unlike anyone else. God loves you !
To learn more about Celebrate Recovery visit their website
Also, find churches in your area that
offer Celebrate Recovery to begin your journey of healing.