Monthly Archives: December 2011

Do Not Fear


We do not have to fear the terror of the night, the arrow that flies by day, the pestilence that stalks in the darkness nor the destruction that lays waste in the noon day.  A thousand may fall at my side and ten thousand and my right hand, but it shall not approach me.      Psalms 91



I am sitting in Wednesday night service and I am crying and filled full of fear.  All of a sudden the pastor says out loud, ‘there is someone here and you feel like you are going to die, but God says not to fear and He is guarding your life’!  Wow, I knew he was talking about me – however, it still did not bring me any comfort.  Nearly two years prior to this night, I was in my hot tub and there were some girls from another complex and they were talking about a murder that took place across the street from where I lived.  I had not heard anything about it, but learned that this was a serial rapist.  The police had been looking for him for quite some time.  He had certain targets, like first floor apartments, lights on and he would kick the door in, have his victims drive him to an ATM and then he would rape them.  Because of this I could not sleep and I immediately transferred to an upstairs apartment.  I cannot tell you how much sleep I lost, how I would not turn my lights on at night, I would only have my TV on and I used very dark drapes to cover my windows.  My fear had so overcome me that I was fearful to go home after work, in fact, I tried to figure out a way to sleep at work.  I was very cautious if I went to the store to look to see if anyone followed me home.  At night I would constantly get up and look out my peep hole to see if anyone was outside my door.  I lived like this for nearly two years.  You have to realize that because I am a kidnapping survivor that I am more sensitive to crime as it relates to me.  One night I was in God’s word and I was led to this scripture in Psalms, it was as if the words lept off the page.  God himself was showing me that He is my protection.  The thing that stood out the most for me was ‘the pestilence that stalks in the darkness’.  That is what I was afraid of, but all of a sudden I just felt peace and comfort knowing that God  has given his angels charge over me and that I am covered under the shadow of His wings.  Shortly after I surrendered my fear to God, they finally caught this man who had been on a criminal rampage for over two years.  To this day, I quote Psalms 91 before I go to sleep every night and I find comfort in God’s word and am able to sleep in peace knowing that He is my shelter and refuge.  I believe that everyone struggles with some type of fear.  There is a reason that ‘fear not’ is in the bible 365 times, its literally one fear not for each day.  You may be struggling with the fear of losing your job, losing your home, maybe it’s a health scare, an unsaved loved one, legal struggle, a large debt, marriage, falling grades, being bullied, or fear of not being able to overcome some type of addiction or even a fear of living sober.  You know I even knew someone like that who had been drinking for so long to cope with an abusive childhood, they were actually terrified of being sober because they did not know how to live that way.  Fear is used to paralyze us by the enemy and if we become paralyzed we will not move forward, it’s a way of keeping us in that bondage. You hear so many acronyms for fear, such as false evidence appearing real and to put it more simply, fear is a lie we believe.   Faith literally is the opposite of fear and you must take that leap of faith and trust faith which is truth more than fear which is believing a lie.  The reason why fear has so much power over us is even though it is a lie, it has become a type of truth to us…..we believe that the worst thing can or will happen.  No matter what fear you are facing, God’s protection scripture in Psalms 91 will cover you and protect you.  Because I know the power of fear, I would suggest you read this scripture in Psalms and begin to memorize it and begin to confess it over and over until you begin to let God’s truth take root in you and you begin to trust in God’s truth for you and when you become tempted to fear, just confess the scripture and it will disarm that lie and you will find your peace.   God loves you and wants you free from fear and so do I.

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Posted by on December 14, 2011 in Uncategorized


He leads the way

A man’s mind plans his ways, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure. Prov. 16:9

In my early years as a christian I had no idea that God spoke to us in many ways, but primarily through His word.  I learned to start getting into God’s word through a daily devotional.  In my journey the Lord would give me a scripture that is in Numbers 6: ‘The Lord bless you and keep you and make His face to shine upon you’.  I noticed that I would get the scripture all the time.  He would lead me to the scripture in His word, I would see it in songs and once I received it in a birthday card.  I would get this scripture for at least 2 years, but really did not think much about it or what its purpose was for me.  I just thought it was sweet and that God was blessing me all the time.  There were a lot of things going on with me in my life as a new christian.  One thing was I felt that I was to leave my church.  I can’t explain it, but I felt tremendous anxiety every time I went to this particular church.  One night my stomach hurt so bad that I ran out of there during the service and I never went back.  I began visiting other churches.  I went to one church and the music was amazing, but the teaching was lacking.  I would visit another church where the teaching was amazing, but the worship was not what I was looking for.  This went on for some time and one day I began to weep as I left another church I was visiting.  Lord!  I just want to be home and I don’t know where home is!  During this time a long time family friend died and as I attended her funeral I was given a Remembrance of my friend and in it typed out was her favorite scripture… was Numbers 6.  What is this Lord, I even get this scripture at a funeral?  Shortly after that, a girlfriend had moved to a smaller suburb of Dallas and she was looking for a church to take her family.  She received a mailer from a local church so she decided to visit and she asked me to come with her.  The worship and the teaching were amazing, I loved it so much and when service was over the pastor blessed us out and you can only guess, he blessed us out with Numbers 6, ‘The Lord bless you and Lord keep you and make His face to shine upon you’!  I knew right then that I had found my church home!  The Lord leads us in so many ways.  He leads with our peace in a particular situation.  He leads with confirmation through the words of those we are aligned with.  Sometimes he leads with us just having a knowing that we cannot exlplain.  He leads by having everything just fall into place.  In other ways it could be with visions or prophecy.  It might be a particular sermon or daily devotional.  His ways are infinite.  You may find yourself struggling with what direction you should take or maybe you are afraid you will make the wrong decision.  Most are concerned that they might miss God’s leading.  Others question his prompting and justify it as human reasoning.  I have had friends say that God does not speak to them like he does me and they don’t  know which way to turn.  The truth is God is speaking all the time.  I have been there so many times wondering if I am in His will and on the right path, but it seems that I always end up where I am supposed to be.  It would be fair to say that fear is the biggest hindrance as it relates to the Lord directing our steps.  As humans we have to have our senses satisfied before we trust, we have to see it with our own eyes, we have to be able to touch it or we must hear it with our own ears.  Remember we serve a supernatural not a natural God.  That is why the word says that we walk by faith and not by sight.  Faith being the opposite of fear and trusting what our senses cannot detect to say its safe.  Take that step of faith, it will take you places you never dreamed…….it is written in Proverbs 3:3-5  ‘trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding (sight, hearing, touch, smell, traditions, reasoning, past experieces) but ACKNOWLEDGE Him in all your ways and He shall make you path straight’.

It took a while for me to get to my church home, but as you see the Lord was leading my steps for two years and I ended up where I needed to be as I was just going about my normal everyday life.  The same is true with leading my steps to my job, to my friends, to my spouse, church, etc…..the promise in Proverbs 3 is that our path is made straight, but we must acknowledge (ask) Him first, then we can be sure to receive what we ask. 

Surrender your fear by praying this…….Lord I am afraid, but I trust you and I need direction in this particular situation and your word says that if I acknowledge you that you will make my path straight.  I trust you Lord that you are capable of directing my steps and leading me exactly to the place you have designated for me.

God loves you and so do I !

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Posted by on December 12, 2011 in Uncategorized