Our Father, which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy Name. Thy Kingdom come. Thy will be done in earth, As it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our trespasses, As we forgive them that trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, But deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom, The power, and the glory, For ever and ever. Amen.
Whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father who is in heaven will also forgive you your transgressions Matthew 11.25
A question was asked recently. What things are you having a hard time giving to God? I first wrote down a question mark. I honestly thought to myself that I have given everything to Him. I first met God at a cross roads of nearly committing suicide. I was looking out my window thinking how I could kill myself and not survive. My TV was on in the background and woman screamed at the top of her lungs ‘Nothing is impossible with God!’ That day I made a choice to believe in Him, I said to Him that I was not sure if He was real, but I had nothing to lose and everything to gain by believing in Him. My life began to change and began to take on shape and for once in two years I had hope again. I felt I walked very closely with God and He had so carefully walked me through trusting Him with my finances, with my future, my relationships, and my safety. I thought I was good. As I began to dig deeper with the question to myself, I realized that the one thing that I had not given over was forgiving my parent who had hurt me for most of my life. I had gotten to such a point that I could not bear to hear their voice. One day I was struggling so bad that I prayed to God to show me them through His eyes. When I prayed the prayer, I really did not know what to expect and I basically went about my business not giving it much thought. It was 3 days later I had a vision and I saw my parent being surrounded by what looked to be pit bulls and they were growling at her and they were getting ready to attack her. I knew that the symbolism was that they are surrounded by the enemy and I believe that they are powerless to the things that they say and do. I believe it was the next day I got a download from God and this is what He gave me. He said, ‘If your parent’s mother were to pass away today, your parent would never know what unconditional love is’. I immediately broke down and cried – my heart was broken that my parent is close to 70 years old and all they know is rejection, abuse and anything other than love. You see I have been part of a generational cycle that has come from my grandmother. I am not certain what her mother or father had done to her. My grandmother is still living and there is still time for God to do a miracle in their relationship. My prayer for my parent is that they would know what unconditional love is. Today I see my parent much differently. It does not justify anything that has been done, however, I find it easier to forgive through my understanding and seeing them as God sees them. I believe God’s heart is broken too.
I know you have been hurt too and on this path to healing we must forgive those who have sinned against us if we want to experience the fullness of healing. Perhaps like me the thought of forgiving someone seems impossible. God is a God of love, mercy and forgiveness and He has forgiven you and I of much. Forgiveness does necessarily let them off the hook, but it frees you. Unforgiveness affects everything about you. It affects decisions that you make, it will poison your relationships and even make your body physically sick. I once read a quote from a doctor, ‘that most people could leave the hospital if they would forgive those they have hurt and those that have hurt them!’ Let’s decide not to allow them to affect us negatively or have any more destructive power in our lives and that begins with forgiveness. I love you and I believe in you.