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Inner Vows

Inner vows — God says it’s a sin ….

We make inner vows …..Or a promise in response to something negative that we have encountered….

E.g. (I will never hurt like that again, I will never be broke, when I get some money I will make sure I have more than enough clothes, I will never treat my kids like that, no one in authority will ever tell me what to do).

When you make an inner vow with yourself, you have now become God over that area… And God will never be able to be lord over that area…. such as your relationships, your finances, your work ethic…..

1. Recognize it as sin; 2. Repent, which means you simply change your mind about it; 3. Forgive those who have hurt you; 4. Submit that area to God; 5. Break that off your life in the name of Jesus, and declare a blessing over your life.

I encourage you today to begin praying and asking God are there any inner vows or promises that you’ve made yourself to protect yourself… And submit those to him so he can become Lord over that area of your life. 🖤⚔️➕

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Posted by on October 23, 2018 in Uncategorized


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Reverse negative thinking !

Woo hoo Day 12 of my brain detox!

Transparency is sometimes difficult but as God has called me to stand on stage, for the sake of other people being healed my life is an open book.

I am working on five different fears but doing one at a time …

1. Fear in relationships

Lies I believed: men lie, cheat and leave

Cause & Effect: I do not feel safe
Division, loss

These lies became part of my reality as early as 10 years old by people I loved and trusted …..

The lies and belief system that I developed were based on actions of others affected the way I felt in relationships, it impacted the way that I saw myself and set my relationships up for failure.

Thank goodness for God and the way he created our brains, neuroscience reveals that we can literally reverse damage and create new defaults!

Several days ago, I asked God for the perfect scripture to stand on in building my new thought process ..

Galatians 4: so you are no longer a slave, but a son/daughter, God has made you an heir !

Today God revealed that the truth is we are all subject to be hurt or disappointed unintentionally. The difference for me today is that I don’t have to live in fear and I can believe the best in someone. IF I do get hurt I can trust God that I will recover and that he will work all things together for good.

I no longer have to be a slave to that fear, those thoughts, feeling unsafe.
What the enemy has meant for my harm and my destruction, the Lord will use for good.

Today I have a better chance of going into a relationship and feeling safe and allowing myself to experience true joy where my happiness was stolen in the past because of fear……

I have shared that I can POLL an audience and 99% have experienced fear, rejection and abandonment.

You can reverse the thoughts and triggers and emotions from those events and we can truly live out John 10, that Jesus has come that we may have life and have it more abundantly!


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Posted by on October 1, 2018 in Uncategorized


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Have you ever been hurt by a religious organization?

⚠️🚸 caution: you may get enlightened today 🤔

Have you ever been hurt by a religious organization or someone in the church?

I have …..

It’s one of the intersections of my life that I talk about in my ministry …..

This life event for my me was just like a divorce…..

I attended, invested in others, served, gave, others invested in me and was in leadership for 12 amazing years !!!

I was hurt beyond belief, angry and just like in divorce….. I lost a community of people who I thought were my friends!

This happened in 2014 and since then I have the hardest time walking through any church doors….. if I attend, I don’t get involved (just like dating), you don’t want to get too close to anyone for fear of being hurt.

I know that this is all from the enemy and I can see how others would hold a grudge against man or even blame God……

God is not the author of my hurt…..

If you have been hurt and wounded, I am here to say that I understand.

God does not care whether we go to church or not, we don’t go for him, we go for our benefit. The benefits of going to church is obviously to learn God’s word, to enter into corporate worship, to serve, and to align with people and become part of something bigger than who we are.

The enemy comes to create division because he knows that’s where our power is….with aligning with others and learning God’s word and getting to know his character.

And of course he would want to keep you from that…..

Today, I ask if you are like me, and you’ve been wounded, to forgive those who have hurt you, and if you believe God is the author of your hurt, to release forgiveness towards him today…… because he loves you!!

I know that I need continued healing in this area even as a born-again believer, called into ministry, gifted….daughter of God!!

I know that there is power and benefits in community….

Today, I am taking a step towards my healing and I’m gonna walk through some doors today!!!! 🙏👏🏻🖤⚔️➕

It may not be my church home, but I’m going to go and worship the Lord and I’m going to leave my hurt at the altar !!!!

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Posted by on October 1, 2018 in Uncategorized


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Our Father, which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy Name. Thy Kingdom come. Thy will be done in earth, As it is in heaven.  Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our trespasses, As we forgive them that trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, But deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom, The power, and the glory, For ever and ever. Amen.

Whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father who is in heaven will also forgive you your transgressions  Matthew 11.25


A question was asked recently.  What things are you having a hard time giving to God?  I first wrote down a question mark.  I honestly thought to myself that I have given everything to Him.  I first met God at a cross roads of nearly committing suicide.  I was looking out my window thinking how I could kill myself and not survive.  My TV was on in the background and woman screamed at the top of her lungs ‘Nothing is impossible with God!’  That day I made a choice to believe in Him, I said to Him that I was not sure if He was real, but I had nothing to lose and everything to gain by believing in Him.  My life began to change and began to take on shape and for once in two years I had hope again.  I felt I walked very closely with God and He had so carefully walked me through trusting Him with my finances, with my future, my relationships, and my safety.  I thought I was good.  As I began to dig deeper with the question to myself,  I realized that the one thing that I had not given over was forgiving my parent who had hurt me for most of my life.  I had gotten to such a point that I could not bear to hear their voice.  One day I was struggling so bad that I prayed to God to show me them through His eyes.  When I prayed the prayer, I really did not know what to expect and I basically went about my business not giving it much thought.  It was 3 days later I had a vision and I saw my parent being surrounded by what looked to be pit bulls and they were growling at her and they were getting ready to attack her.  I knew that the symbolism was that they are surrounded by the enemy and I believe that they are powerless to the things that they say and do.  I believe it was the next day I got a download from God and this is what He gave me.  He said, ‘If your parent’s mother were to pass away today, your parent would never know what unconditional love is’.  I immediately broke down and cried – my heart was broken that my parent is close to 70 years old and all they know is rejection, abuse and anything other than love.  You see I have been part of a generational cycle that has come from my grandmother.  I am not certain what her mother or father had done to her.  My grandmother is still living and there is still time for God to do a miracle in their relationship.  My prayer for my parent is that they would know what unconditional love is.  Today I see my parent much differently.  It does not justify anything that has been done, however, I find it easier to forgive through my understanding and seeing them as God sees them.  I believe God’s heart is broken too.

 I know you have been hurt too and on this path to healing we must forgive those who have sinned against us if we want to experience the fullness of healing.  Perhaps like me the thought of forgiving someone seems impossible.  God is a God of love, mercy and forgiveness and He has forgiven you and I of much.  Forgiveness does necessarily let them off the hook, but it frees you.  Unforgiveness affects everything about you.  It affects decisions that you make, it will poison your relationships and even make your body physically sick.  I once read a quote from a doctor, ‘that most people could leave the hospital if they would forgive those they have hurt and those that have hurt them!’  Let’s decide not to allow them to affect us negatively or have any more destructive power in our lives and that begins with forgiveness.  I love you and I believe in you.

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Posted by on June 29, 2012 in Uncategorized


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You won’t be disappointed

For the scripture says that ‘Whoever believes in Him shall not be disappointed. Romans 10:11

As most of you know I was kidnapped about ten years ago and I noticed that afterwards strange things began to take place in my body. And for years I was on a quest to be cured of all the afflictions I was suffering. I had gone to several doctors and they wanted to just put my on antidepressants and I refused to take them. After about 4 years of suffering I decided I was going to contact a couple of doctors on my health plan, one was a endocrinologist and the other was a gastrointestinal physician. For 3 days I tried calling both of these physician’s office only to get a busy signal. These doctors were not at the same location nor did they have the same number, but every time I called the line was busy! After the second day I called from my landline and also my cell and even contacted the operator and asked for dialing assistance. I was not getting through, the line was always busy. You and I know that we do not get busy signals any longer in the business world!!! On the third day I was driving home for lunch and I was frustrated because I was trying to call again that morning to set up appointments and I screamed at God and said ‘Don’t you want me to get well?!” The radio was on in my car and I was listening to Christian radio and the speaker said, lay your hands on your body that needs healing and wait for it. I am thinking, wow I am going to get a miracle, a physical touch by God and I will be healed. I waited. Several years later a woman spoke at our church about alternative medicine and for some reason I called her office and set up a phone consultation with her and for the first time I told someone about my kidnapping. She made a statement and said, “I bet you are experiencing physical symptoms all over your body”. Then she answered my question to God years before. “CK, you do not have a physical problem, you are dealing with trauma in your body and its causing you to experience physical symptoms, but that is all they are. If I were to give you a pill for each symptom, I would make you worse”. All this time, God was protecting me from me getting worse or even possibly dying by taking something that my body did not need. I think back to when God spoke through that man on the radio……..God was trying to stop me from calling and setting appointments……..I was waiting on what I thought was His touch, but He was actually trying to get wisdom to me. You see my symptoms cannot be healed by a pill, they will be addressed and healed through my recovery process. The same is true for you, whatever your symptoms you experience (addiction, anger, failed relationships, pride, self doubt, anxiety, eating disorder, etc.) healing will not come through a pill or another relationship, money, approval, etc……..healing comes from God and through our recovery. You see what looked liked a denial from God or that He just did not care, the truth is He did care and He has mine and your best interest at heart. Let’s take a step of faith today and no matter what your situation looks like, whether a denial from God, unanswered prayers……..let’s believe that God has a great plan for you and wisdom will come and you will find healing in due season. God loves you and so do I.

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Posted by on April 23, 2012 in Uncategorized


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