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Reverse negative thinking !

Woo hoo Day 12 of my brain detox!

Transparency is sometimes difficult but as God has called me to stand on stage, for the sake of other people being healed my life is an open book.

I am working on five different fears but doing one at a time …

1. Fear in relationships

Lies I believed: men lie, cheat and leave

Cause & Effect: I do not feel safe
Division, loss

These lies became part of my reality as early as 10 years old by people I loved and trusted …..

The lies and belief system that I developed were based on actions of others affected the way I felt in relationships, it impacted the way that I saw myself and set my relationships up for failure.

Thank goodness for God and the way he created our brains, neuroscience reveals that we can literally reverse damage and create new defaults!

Several days ago, I asked God for the perfect scripture to stand on in building my new thought process ..

Galatians 4: so you are no longer a slave, but a son/daughter, God has made you an heir !

Today God revealed that the truth is we are all subject to be hurt or disappointed unintentionally. The difference for me today is that I don’t have to live in fear and I can believe the best in someone. IF I do get hurt I can trust God that I will recover and that he will work all things together for good.

I no longer have to be a slave to that fear, those thoughts, feeling unsafe.
What the enemy has meant for my harm and my destruction, the Lord will use for good.

Today I have a better chance of going into a relationship and feeling safe and allowing myself to experience true joy where my happiness was stolen in the past because of fear……

I have shared that I can POLL an audience and 99% have experienced fear, rejection and abandonment.

You can reverse the thoughts and triggers and emotions from those events and we can truly live out John 10, that Jesus has come that we may have life and have it more abundantly!


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Posted by on October 1, 2018 in Uncategorized


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Have you ever been hurt by a religious organization?

⚠️🚸 caution: you may get enlightened today 🤔

Have you ever been hurt by a religious organization or someone in the church?

I have …..

It’s one of the intersections of my life that I talk about in my ministry …..

This life event for my me was just like a divorce…..

I attended, invested in others, served, gave, others invested in me and was in leadership for 12 amazing years !!!

I was hurt beyond belief, angry and just like in divorce….. I lost a community of people who I thought were my friends!

This happened in 2014 and since then I have the hardest time walking through any church doors….. if I attend, I don’t get involved (just like dating), you don’t want to get too close to anyone for fear of being hurt.

I know that this is all from the enemy and I can see how others would hold a grudge against man or even blame God……

God is not the author of my hurt…..

If you have been hurt and wounded, I am here to say that I understand.

God does not care whether we go to church or not, we don’t go for him, we go for our benefit. The benefits of going to church is obviously to learn God’s word, to enter into corporate worship, to serve, and to align with people and become part of something bigger than who we are.

The enemy comes to create division because he knows that’s where our power is….with aligning with others and learning God’s word and getting to know his character.

And of course he would want to keep you from that…..

Today, I ask if you are like me, and you’ve been wounded, to forgive those who have hurt you, and if you believe God is the author of your hurt, to release forgiveness towards him today…… because he loves you!!

I know that I need continued healing in this area even as a born-again believer, called into ministry, gifted….daughter of God!!

I know that there is power and benefits in community….

Today, I am taking a step towards my healing and I’m gonna walk through some doors today!!!! 🙏👏🏻🖤⚔️➕

It may not be my church home, but I’m going to go and worship the Lord and I’m going to leave my hurt at the altar !!!!

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Posted by on October 1, 2018 in Uncategorized


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Healing for your body and soul

For I will restore you to health and heal your wounds       Jeremiah 30:17
A few months after I was kidnapped I began to notice some changes in my body. The three that I had most complaint about was that I began to be extremely sensitive to any kind of heat. I would begin to almost overheat and my skin would feel like it was on fire if I were in direct sunlight and/or temperatures around 100 degrees for any more than 10 – 15 seconds. The second thing I noticed is that I had major issues as it relates to my digestive tract……..years ago I finally diagnosed myself more than likely having symptoms of irritable bowl syndrome. The third thing I struggled with was if I heard any bad news, got angry, stressed or even worked out — the slightest stress on me would cause me to have what I commonly called spells. I would feel my pulse all over my body very strongly for about 3 days, I could not sleep and I usually became lethargic……just laying in my floor for days without the energy to shower or even talk. The episodes scared me. Once at work a friend of mine literally fell on the floor and blood was coming out his mouth — the whole thing traumatized me so badly that I had one of my spells and then had chest pains for 2 weeks and was put on a leave of absence at work. Sometimes I would wake up in the middle of the night because for no reason I would not feel good and be extremely scared and I would cry and get out my bible just looking for some comfort from God. One night I woke up and I was standing and my heart was pounding and I had the urge to throw up and my skin was burning…….I thought that I needed to go to the ER. I went to get my bible and that was the first time that I saw the scripture here in Jeremiah. Over the years I had gone to a couple of family physicians and they just wanted me to take anti-depressants and I was not willing to do that. Another time I tried for 3 days to contact an endocrinologist and a gastro intestine physician and for 3 days the line was busy!!!!! Both offices I could not get thru. By the third day I screamed at God –do you not want me to get well?????? I was listening to the radio and a preacher said — if you need healing in your body, place your hands on the area and wait for it. A year later I had a consultation with a homeopathic expert who came to our church, I made a phone consultation with her…..i told her i was kidnapped and she asked me if I had problems all thru my body and I said yes. She answered my question to God a year earlier….she said you do not have a physical problem, you have symptoms in your body because your trauma is still in your body and if I were to give you a medication for each of your symptoms I would make your worse!!!!!! I got enlightenment that day and began to connect the dots of the scripture in Jeremiah. That was the beginning of my journey of gaining knowledge and wisdom about the healing ministry that God was building in me. I am currently writing my third book with a psychologist about the body and how emotions and wounds affect us not only in our will, but also the physical symptoms that we experience. God wants so bad for us to be healed and to be free — do you know that is where most diseases start, is with unforgiveness and other types of unhealthy emotions. All of that said is really to emphasize the importance of our recovery and to really allow God to expose those very deep wounds that we have buried. I am sharing this today with you because I have received a healing in my physical body within the past couple of weeks and I know it was from the night that thru crying I released some of my pain. I have not been normal for 12 years and everyday I am thinking I am dreaming because I forgot what it was like to be normal in a particular part of my body. I also had a very good friend be freed of back pain that she had for many years — God showed her it was shame that was released. The weight of her shame she carried literally gave her such pain that she could not bend over to tie her shoes and to do some of the more simple things that we take for granted. I am so excited for each one of you and know that you will be set free from the emotional prison that you have been in and some of you will also experience physical healings in your body. Do not give up, you are almost there.
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Stand or Go

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Trust Him, He leads the way


Posted by on January 22, 2012 in Uncategorized


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