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Reverse negative thinking !

Woo hoo Day 12 of my brain detox!

Transparency is sometimes difficult but as God has called me to stand on stage, for the sake of other people being healed my life is an open book.

I am working on five different fears but doing one at a time …

1. Fear in relationships

Lies I believed: men lie, cheat and leave

Cause & Effect: I do not feel safe
Division, loss

These lies became part of my reality as early as 10 years old by people I loved and trusted …..

The lies and belief system that I developed were based on actions of others affected the way I felt in relationships, it impacted the way that I saw myself and set my relationships up for failure.

Thank goodness for God and the way he created our brains, neuroscience reveals that we can literally reverse damage and create new defaults!

Several days ago, I asked God for the perfect scripture to stand on in building my new thought process ..

Galatians 4: so you are no longer a slave, but a son/daughter, God has made you an heir !

Today God revealed that the truth is we are all subject to be hurt or disappointed unintentionally. The difference for me today is that I don’t have to live in fear and I can believe the best in someone. IF I do get hurt I can trust God that I will recover and that he will work all things together for good.

I no longer have to be a slave to that fear, those thoughts, feeling unsafe.
What the enemy has meant for my harm and my destruction, the Lord will use for good.

Today I have a better chance of going into a relationship and feeling safe and allowing myself to experience true joy where my happiness was stolen in the past because of fear……

I have shared that I can POLL an audience and 99% have experienced fear, rejection and abandonment.

You can reverse the thoughts and triggers and emotions from those events and we can truly live out John 10, that Jesus has come that we may have life and have it more abundantly!

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Posted by on October 1, 2018 in Uncategorized

 

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Have you ever been hurt by a religious organization?

⚠️🚸 caution: you may get enlightened today 🤔

Have you ever been hurt by a religious organization or someone in the church?

I have …..

It’s one of the intersections of my life that I talk about in my ministry …..

This life event for my me was just like a divorce…..

I attended, invested in others, served, gave, others invested in me and was in leadership for 12 amazing years !!!

I was hurt beyond belief, angry and just like in divorce….. I lost a community of people who I thought were my friends!

This happened in 2014 and since then I have the hardest time walking through any church doors….. if I attend, I don’t get involved (just like dating), you don’t want to get too close to anyone for fear of being hurt.

I know that this is all from the enemy and I can see how others would hold a grudge against man or even blame God……

God is not the author of my hurt…..

If you have been hurt and wounded, I am here to say that I understand.

God does not care whether we go to church or not, we don’t go for him, we go for our benefit. The benefits of going to church is obviously to learn God’s word, to enter into corporate worship, to serve, and to align with people and become part of something bigger than who we are.

The enemy comes to create division because he knows that’s where our power is….with aligning with others and learning God’s word and getting to know his character.

And of course he would want to keep you from that…..

Today, I ask if you are like me, and you’ve been wounded, to forgive those who have hurt you, and if you believe God is the author of your hurt, to release forgiveness towards him today…… because he loves you!!

I know that I need continued healing in this area even as a born-again believer, called into ministry, gifted….daughter of God!!

I know that there is power and benefits in community….

Today, I am taking a step towards my healing and I’m gonna walk through some doors today!!!! 🙏👏🏻🖤⚔️➕

It may not be my church home, but I’m going to go and worship the Lord and I’m going to leave my hurt at the altar !!!!

 
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Posted by on October 1, 2018 in Uncategorized

 

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Chapter 3 summary of One Way Out

…….Then he commanded me to get on the bike. I did as he commanded fearful of not getting on the bike. He fired it up, peeled out and the terror ride home began. I was screaming all the while sobbing through tears because I am quite literally almost paralyzed with my own fear we’re going so fast. There’s no calming the rage that’s brewing inside him, and the motorcycle is the tool he used to power through the fit of furiousness. I was along for the ride whether I liked it or not. He’s playing chicken with oncoming cars. He eventually swerved in front of a car and I screamed and we ended up on the opposite side of road’s shoulder to avoid the head on collision he tried to create. We came to a stop and my words I said earlier had come back to haunt me because once we came to a stop, John said, ‘I thought that you were not afraid to die’. I believe that was the enemy’s voice. One thing is for sure. God was with us on that bike and I wasn’t meant to die there, because if it were up to him I believe he would have killed us both for my actions that night.

 
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Posted by on June 18, 2018 in Uncategorized

 

One Way Out …..

This is a chapter summary of Chapter 2 in my book proposal……

Spiritual Beginnings
In this chapter, the author summarizes a life of destruction by the time that she is 30 years old. “By the time I was 30 years old I had quit high school, been married and divorced, became a crack addict, been arrested more times than most men, had 3 abortions, became addicted to prescription drugs. I attracted men and women alike who would not see my value, developed an anxiety disorder and ended up with cancer. It’s no wonder that I ended up sick. I was emotionally sick and self-destructive. The lies that I believed controlled the way that I thought, which changed the way that I spoke and ultimately affected what I attracted in my life”. The author’s life will be indirectly changed by her father’s hospital visit from a local pastor. The power of prayer changes everything!

 
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Posted by on June 11, 2018 in Uncategorized

 

One Way Out – memoir by CK Kirtley

Here is another sneak peek of my memoir ‘One Way Out’ which is soon to be released.

Because of the dysfunctional foundation that was being laid out for me, it affected the way I saw myself and the choices that I made. Fast forwarding through 20+ years, I have gone through dropping out of high school, my own divorce, struggled as a crack addict, been arrested several times and put on probation, had three abortions, and survived cancer. If all of this was not enough to go through I was faced with the most difficult battle of my life. I was kidnapped in the Dallas area, blind folded, tied up, and held against my will for 12 agonizing hours. As I was being held by my captor, he told me precisely how he was going to kill me……

 
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Posted by on May 22, 2018 in Uncategorized

 

One Way Out

My book has been collecting dust, sitting on a metaphoical shelf since 2003. I have taken some detours, been distracted, been afraid to dive deep into my pain and walking out my refinement and lessons. I am projecting to release my story, which is God’s story in hopes of giving him great glory and bringing a message of HOPE to his children. Nothing is impossible with God and He is our only way out. Here is a preview….

A MEMOIR
by Cynthia Kirtley
© ALL RIGHTS RESERVED – CK MINISTRIES
Prolog
“You’re going to kill me,” I heard myself cry out. It’s one in the morning and I am blindfolded and terrified. I hear only the sound of my own heart beating. My hands are now tied behind my back. The needle he used to sedate me still hanging from the position in my arm. The man I thought I loved now held me hostage. I wondered if this was a dream, but it isn’t. The sweaty stench of his debauchery fills the air. Hours pass and I am only able to remove my blindfold by moving my head maneuvering my body against the bed to allow it to slip off my head. In my despair only one thought came to me. “God where are you?” The hours of captivity changed my life far more than I ever thought it could and it would be only the beginning of my journey. This is my story.

 
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Posted by on May 1, 2018 in Uncategorized

 

You were born on purpose for an extraordinary purpose

 
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Posted by on August 14, 2017 in Uncategorized